Advent II

It was an indifferent Sunday, the second Sunday of Advent. I skipped church. Outside the temperature sat at about 25 degrees where it has been more or less for the past three days. Most of our main streets are clear, but we remain frost bound, much of the city still covered by a thin mixture of sleet and snow. Light snow fell off and on around town; we had a bit through the day. Our dogs hibernated, taking in the warmth of their place. Something about this cold snap has dampened their enthusiasm for playing in the snow, which they often like for short stretches of time. Perhaps it was the sky outside, colored that indifferent white that suggests more weather, though we’re told temperatures will rise above freezing by Tuesday and the sun will return. I’m hearing from friends and family in Texas of thick sheets of ice that have created lots of hardship in the wake of this southern winter storm that has just touched us here in Saint Louis.

Advent is traditionally the season of last things, wherein the Christian orthodox faithful have for centuries been invited to ponder the mysteries of heaven, hell, death, and judgment. That Advent, the real one, contrasts sharply with the unfolding Christmas of conspicuous consumption that now begins right after Halloween and picks up speed during the run-up to Thanksgiving. This is the Christmas the paranoid right imagines to be under siege by the forces of secularism and alien religion; though it’s hard to imagine anything more secular than the Christmas of The Polar Express and A Christmas Carol, the Christmas the Grinch stole. Tiny Tim is a secular icon, belonging more to Advent than to Christmas, and his “God bless us, every one!” is the least sentimental utterance in Dickens’ story. Tiny Tim is the terrible vulnerability in us, what ought to remind us as we go about our blessed lives that the blessedness is not ours. It’s a gift. We delude ourselves when we think we own it or have earned it. We are all of us at bottom unaccommodated, such poor bare forked animals as Lear became when his pitiless daughters drove him crazy. That’s what Advent is about; it has always had a secular dimension.

And I enjoy the secular Christmas as most American do, though I avoid the various shopping excesses some of my friends like. I also enjoy such ecumenical events as I can honestly celebrate. The rare convergence of Thanksgiving with Hanukkah this year gave me the blessed opportunity to witness the lighting of a Menorah at my table on the day and haltingly to attempt to hum along as friends sang a Hebrew song. Often the beginning of Advent has been my occasion to listen to “Wachet Auf” with its wonderful pastiche of typology figured and transfigured in Bach’s resplendent melodies: pointing towards traditional tropes of heaven, mostly, though acknowledging that the sudden breaking of that realm into the ordinary real carries an edge of judgment. The readiness at which the bridesmaids seem to fail is attainable, if at all, only through the prayer and meditation Advent urges, the contemplation of the end of life as disclosed in its many beginnings. But this year, perhaps because of the weather but more likely because of history, I’m in a darker humor. At a time when I am personally blessed beyond any anticipation I ever had about how my life might close (and I’m in no hurry for that to happen), I am more and more distressed that my public life is disfigured almost beyond recognition. I am surrounded by needless want, desolation, dearth, and ideological hardness of heart proclaimed, sometimes by people I love, as a kind of Christian justice. And at this season of all seasons it is particularly distressing to think of the following phenomena I take as signs of the times.

Feeding the hungry: Food banks everywhere have been strained beyond their capacity during the great recession. The refusal by Congress to extend SNAP and unemployment benefits that were part of the stimulus package has exacerbated that strain, increasing the suffering index in this country and putting even more pressure on benevolent institutions. Right wing politicians are fond of extolling the virtues of private philanthropy as the remedy for social ills; but now in city after city ordinances are being passed that prevent private agencies from feeding the homeless. I’m hearing no right-wing protest about these terrible laws. Indeed I take Bill O’Reilly’s now famous rant about the poor to be a summation of the political right’s understanding of the teachings of Jesus.

Health insurance: The Affordable Care Act isn’t what I would have liked to see enacted. My view of the matter is pretty much summarized at the beginning of a recent Nation editorial. However, I think the intention and potential of the act was and will be to improve our present system of private insurance, to increase coverage and ensure greater fairness. This is a moral issue, but the forces arrayed against the success of the act (some of them engaging in outright sabotage) are also believers in the gospel according to O’Reilly, no matter that many of them enjoy the benefits of Medicare or have children who are taking advantage of Medicaid. There is a broad spectrum of belief in the land that if you are sick or hungry or homeless it’s your fault and you don’t deserve help. Even if you have a preexisting condition, it’s your fault and you don’t deserve to have health insurance.

Social justice: Our Country’s traditional reliance on the will of the people is everywhere under attack: in state after state through attempts to enact voter suppression legislation (I’ve written a fair amount about this already), in public policy that has systematically promoted corporate interests and the interests of wealth while denying and suppressing the interests of consumers and workers, and in the nation’s capitol where the public interest as expressed in poll after poll on issues as varied as monetary policy, entitlements, and the environment is regularly flouted. That John Boehner claims to represent the American people is laughable. President Obama’s recent speech about economic inequality was moving, but his policies will do nothing to correct it. Indeed, he failed even to address its worst accomplishments. Small wonder, since his administration has actively fostered the theft of worker pensions in Detroit. We have arrived at a place where Time can write in relation to the labor struggle at Boeing’s Seattle plant:

Given what has gone on in the steel, mining, aluminum, chemical, auto and tire industries among others in the last couple of decades, you would think the IAM would understand that labor costs have to be globally competitive. In the global economy, every job is part of a labor arbitrage. Airframe work is already being farmed out by Boeing to Japan, the Middle East and Asia, where the big customers are.

This is now conventional wisdom, and almost nobody, certainly nobody in the mainstream press seems to understand the moral horror of it. It is the teaching of neoliberal economics, which has destroyed the city of Detroit, is in the process of destroying the state of Wisconsin, and even reaches into the arts, as the spectacle of the destruction of the Minnesota Orchestra by its management will attest. The orchestra’s musicians have been locked out for a year and a half, but the orchestra’s failed CEO continues to draw an exorbitant salary and massive bonuses.

Clean energy: Ameren Missouri, my supplier of electrical power, has recently agreed to a settlement requiring it to pay a total of $92m in solar energy rebates, $42m of which has already been spent. For years Ameren touted its green energy program but now, in a regulatory climate that gives renewed permission to environmental exploitation, has sought to abandon it and would have suspended the rebate program entirely but for intervention by the solar industry and the Office of Public Counsel. The American Legislative Exchange Council is now pushing measures in many states aimed at stifling renewable energy development on a wider scale. But perhaps a more urgent concern for me at the moment is what is happening in my former home of Denton, Texas, which is being turned into a gas field by Eagle Ridge Energy and other drillers who acquired mineral rights on the QT and are presently surprising UNT students and homeowners around the university by drilling next door and slant drilling underneath them. There have been fracking accidents. Citizens who have participated in the public outcry are being placed on terrorist watch lists. And of course it’s all perfectly legal.

I’m remembering now a conversation with a friend who reacted to an exclamation of mine that Anglican Archbishop Peter Akinola was a terrible man. This was at the height of Akinola’s influence in this country on reactionary persons in my church seeking, among other things, to undermine the authority of recently elected Presiding Bishop, Katharine Jefferts Schori. Akinola was a devout man, my friend told me, she being an admirer of the Presiding Bishop as I was and am. He was a man who was wrong, she said. We should pray for him. Even more years ago I wrote some poems at Advent. This one was published by Green River Press, in an anthology entitled New North Carolina Poetry: The Eighties, edited by my friend Stephen E. Smith. I thought then (and still think) of the Salvationists as a particular sort of good people, no matter their challenges in present inclusive times and their loyalty to outmoded and immoral beliefs about LGBT persons. You’ll see what I mean in the poem, perhaps. Thanks, Stephen.

Salvationists Escaping

The crisis is always the same.
What if, after collecting coats and toys
TV sets, gratuitous old shoes, we should slip
broke and walking out of Sherman’s Atlanta
barely ahead of gangrenous caissons and burning?

And suppose the children were not
the same every year with surprised grandmothers
getting canned goods and hand me downs, but refugees
with swollen bellies begging the roadside
and sooty fingers plucking our penniless sleeves.

It has somehow to start elsewhere.
The world I make love to has always
had your skin. Its roots and contours
swim in your sea, telling each other touching
all the things that are told.

Yet there is always that other, sometimes
so much of it we die for a while or a lifetime
(once as a child I caught the same
tiny fish forty-seven times). In Sherman’s fires
we swim, tiny fish in buffalo grass.

Love because you must before the world wakes
to the dead city and everything gone but smoke.
Tug at each other’s coatsleeves. Do not let go—
as though there were someone to forgive the burning
as though there were someone to love us but ourselves.

The year slows. The days get shorter. Advent doesn’t end with the winter solstice but shortly afterwards. One of the reasons the consumerist Christmas doesn’t bother me as much as it bothers some of my friends is that Christmas has plenty of Pagan background. When the puritans of Boston forbade the celebration of Christmas, they condemned it as an occasion for licentious behavior and as a papist practice, but they also condemned its origin in the Pagan Yule and other celebrations at the solstice. Christmas remains a joyous time for me, a time to play trumpets and ring bells, to remember how the sons of morning filled the sky with their songs and the stirring of their great wings at the coming of the son of man. I love particularly the fact that Christmas seems to make us all a bit more generous, at least for a short time, and the pagan in me revels in the sounds and smells and dreams of the twelve days. This year the Musicians of the Minnesota Orchestra may be well on their way towards renewing the life of their ensemble, forming their own nonprofit and raising money, continuing to play concerts on their own, now nominated for a Grammy award.

But I love Advent too because I need the dark time, not that I need the phenomena I have deplored in the preceding paragraphs—but such things are always present. Maybe we carry a bigger load of them this year than in other years; but suffering and death and injustice and hypocrisy and crime are always present. I need the dark time to brood upon them so that I don’t forget, so I don’t lose the ability to tell right from wrong and I’m never seduced by the thought that folk who do not share my good fortune somehow deserve their lack: so that I never fail to honor Tiny Tim and Crazy Lear, refugees from the once and future burnt Atlanta, a place we all know, the place some of us know we come from.

making certain it goes on

Richard Rorty begins a well known essay entitled “Love and Money” by recalling how E. M. Forster’s authorial voice early in Howard’s End observes that the poor are unthinkable, not because poor people are bad or inferior but because poverty reduces all of life to the issue of brute survival. It’s perhaps a mournful fact, but a fact nonetheless, that the pursuits of those whom Forster terms “gentlefolk” are possible only when survival is not the primary or foreground issue. I’m still teaching school at seventy-six. I still enjoy it, and it still seems to work for me. My students are senior honors students, but not by and large humanities majors. Still, they seem eager. They seem to enjoy the books and the conversations we have. I have had occasion to be proud of many of them over the years as they have gone on to do useful work in the world.

I, myself, have had three educations since I first sat in a college classroom, three turns towards new and unexpected framings of the issues of my life and work. I’m thinking now that I am embarked on a fourth, and that is the background of this essay, if not its subject. I have led a privileged life. My students are gentlefolk, in Forster’s sense, who are training themselves for the occupations and pursuits our society has until recently considered appropriate for gentlefolk, but I now worry that they may be entering a world of work in which leisure and the intellectual pursuits into which they have been socialized may be in short supply.

A recent New York Times carried yet another story about the plight of the humanities. It’s a constant theme of our present-day discourse of education reform, so called, a lot of talk in which there is precious little enlightenment and a growing load of clichés touting whatever is the latest digital fad. But education at all levels is being changed by market and sociological forces in combination with (and I think directed by) a set of political choices, some of which seem very unwise to me and some of which I think are beyond foolish and downright evil. But today I am thinking of this:

To take a Walk in the Gardens of the Palace of the Tuilleries, and describe the Statues there, all in marble, in which the ancient Divinities and Heroes are represented with exquisite Art, would be a very pleasant Amusement, and instructive Entertainment, improving in History, Mythology, Poetry, as well as in Statuary. Another Walk in the Gardens of Versailles, would be usefull and agreable. But to observe these Objects with Taste and describe them so as to be understood, would require more time and thought than I can possibly Spare. It is not indeed the fine Arts, which our Country requires. The Usefull, the mechanic Arts, are those which We have occasion for in a young Country, as yet simple and not far advanced in Luxury, altho perhaps much too far for her Age and Character.

I could fill Volumes with Descriptions of Temples and Palaces, Paintings, Sculptures, Tapestry, Porcelaine, &c. &c. &c. — if I could have time. But I could not do this without neglecting my duty. The Science of Government it is my Duty to study, more than all other Studies Sciences: the Art of Legislation and Administration and Negotiation, ought to take Place, indeed to exclude in a manner all other Arts. I must study Politicks and War that my sons may have liberty to study Painting and Poetry Mathematicks and Philosophy. My sons ought to study Mathematicks and Philosophy, Geography, natural History, Naval Architecture, navigation, Commerce and Agriculture, in order to give their Children a right to study Painting, Poetry, Musick, Architecture, Statuary, Tapestry and Porcelaine.

Written by then President John Adams in a letter to his wife dated 12 May 1780, this famous statement by one of the founders of our republic is an index both of where we stand as present-day Americans in relation to a past that we can claim, and of our distance from that past. I am thinking of it today less because of the thick matrix of cultural assumptions it entails, and more because, though he mentions commerce and agriculture as appropriate areas of study for his sons, Adams nowhere mentions economics. Of course the dismal science hardly existed in Adams’s time and would not be ridiculed as such for another fifty years (by Thomas Carlyle in a tract arguing for the reintroduction of slavery in the West Indies). It’s also interesting that Adams doesn’t mention the study of languages, whether ancient or modern, the former thought useful for young men in Adams’s time and the latter thought by some to be appropriate for young women. Of course, Adams doesn’t mention women’s education at all. Furthermore (and this is a big furthermore), Adams does not speak of education as a training ground for getting a job and making money, the only educational value present day culture seems to recognize. His conception of education is cultural rather than instrumental. The sciences of government and politics, the great structuring sciences of Adams’s time, he saw as appropriate to public men, as are the disciplines he assigned to his children. The next disciplines, those assigned to the third generation in his list, are appropriate to men of leisure, that is to humans primarily concerned with private pursuits.

There is a set of urgent questions we should be asking ourselves about education in our era, starting with these: On the most general level, what stake does one generation have in educating the next? And more specifically relevant to our time, what stake does a democratic society have in educating the young? Adams was no democrat and would likely have prefaced any answers he gave with an assertion that education is categorically superior to ignorance. Though his juxtaposition of practical arts and sciences with others he thought of as primarily decorative is familiar enough to us today, one should not forget in reading Adams’s letter that its catalogue is entirely humanistic. For Adams, education shaped humans in their public capacities, teaching them, as he said elsewhere, not only how to make a living but how to live—and how best to manage and govern the human world. In an earlier letter, dated 22 April 1776, Adams had written to James Warren:

We may please ourselves with the prospect of free and popular Governments, but there is great Danger that these Governments will not make Us happy. God grant they may. But I fear, that in every Assembly, Members will obtain an Influence, by Noise not Sense, by Meanness not Greatness, by Ignorance not Learning, by contracted Hearts not large Souls.

The relevance of these thoughts to the questions I’ve cited in relation to our own time seems clear enough. The distance between us and Adams cannot simply be measured by his world’s tolerance of genocide, slavery, and the subjugation of women (or his distaste for democracy). It must also be measured by our world’s tolerance of noise, meanness, ignorance, and contracted hearts.

I’m not arguing against democracy, but I fear one very plausible conclusion to the claims I am making: that our democracy in the United States of America may be nearing exhaustion. I’ve written before about Sarah Kendzior. Dr. Kendzior has recently published an essay in Al Jazeera that poignantly evokes the post-employment America being delivered to her generation by capital and our present-day governing elites. What do a lawyer, a computer scientist, a military analyst, and a teacher have in common? she asks:

They are trained professionals who cannot find full-time jobs. Since 2008, they have been tenuously employed – working one-year contracts, consulting on the side, hustling to survive. They spent thousands on undergraduate and graduate training to avoid that hustle. They eschewed dreams – journalism, art, entertainment – for safer bets, only to discover that the safest bet is that your job will be contingent and disposable.

Unemployed college graduates are told that their predicament is their own fault. They should have chosen a more “practical” major, like science or engineering, and stayed away from the fickle and loathsome humanities. The reality is that, in the “jobless recovery”, nearly every sector of the economy has been decimated. Companies have turned permanent jobs into contingency labour, and entry-level positions into unpaid internships.

This is the world we inheritors of the commonwealth of John Adams are bequeathing to our posterity; a posterity who have already arrived to face penury, blight, and the ruin of their hopes. And this doesn’t in any way account for our multitudes of working poor who lack education, or those imprisoned in our multibillion dollar incarceration industry or locked into cycles of poverty, violence, and oppression in the parts of our blighted cities we have decided to throw away.

I am a member of the American generation that is sometimes scapegoated as the cause of our present decline. Our society is aging, we are told, and too many resources have been pledged to the elderly. Unfortunately, scrapping federal programs that presently allow some elderly people some comfort and perhaps a dignified death—we have already all but destroyed our country’s pension system—unfortunately, destroying the safety net, so called, will do nothing to change the economic disaster that is faced by today’s rising generations. The problem is not that wealth redistribution to the elderly is depriving the young of opportunity. The problem is that today’s predatory capitalism, which seeks to hide its unparallelled greed in the forest of globalization, has destroyed the productive capitalism that for generations served as the primary wealth-redistribution instrument of our society through decent jobs, with decent salaries and benefits. We may presently be socializing the last American generation to be educated for the world we used to know, not in some golden age but back before 2008 when the credit bubble burst for the American middle classes and we were forced to comprehend the true extent of the economic inequality that had been growing in western societies since the 1970s. John Adams could be optimistic about the future he and his fellow citizens were building “in a young Country, as yet simple and not far advanced in Luxury.” The reality we must face is that we have created far too much luxury for a tiny few at the price of desolation for the many.

There are needed reforms in higher education. Though digital culture has already changed higher education radically, much of the promise of digital culture still needs to be explored and made good. But at present the glaring problem that nobody knows quite how to face is that we are educating an entire generation for a world of disappearing opportunity. In the present historical trough, all education faces redundancy as the scramble for survival becomes the primary datum for the great mass of humanity. Dr. Kendzior continues:

If you are 35 or younger – and quite often, older – the advice of the old economy does not apply to you. You live in the post-employment economy, where corporations have decided not to pay people. Profits are still high. The money is still there. But not for you. You will work without a raise, benefits, or job security. Survival is now a laudable aspiration.

And survival is complicated by the familiar scapegoating of millennials as self absorbed complainers who deserve their fate. But they don’t. The failure isn’t theirs. The failure is with a system of political economy that has allowed the commonwealth to be sucked dry. A few individuals and corporations are hoarding huge piles of cash while real productivity stagnates. Skilled labor is being relentlessly casualized. Infrastructures are being starved and allowed to deteriorate for want of maintenance. Manufacturing is being relocated in search of slave labor and the absence of regulation. We face a time when the American engine of consumption will sputter and die for want of demand. There may be hope for change long term. Gar Aplerovitz has outlined a number of hopeful programs that could redemocratize wealth, but these are just in the beginning stages. I don’t have any real hope that we can solve our present political/economic crisis by tax reform or even through the electoral process. Any new government we elect will be the creature of massed capital as matters stand—only a catastrophe on the order of the depression of the 1930s seems likely to change things.

Meanwhile, there are now at least two generations of Americans, not to mention those in older generations who have lost employment and/or benefits and may never be able to replace them, for whom the primary issue is not how to fix our rigged system but how to survive in it. Survival is also the agenda of many institutions, indeed of our entire public sector: that’s the reality today. And that creates a toxic social environment in which betrayal and victim blaming are normalized. The right would like us not to speak of class warfare. Fair enough. We’ve long ago outstripped mere class warfare and entered an era of wholesale class predation in which hoarded wealth is cannibalizing every resource it can use up: from land, water, and animals to what remains of people’s livelihoods and pensions. I’ve just read Cormac McCarthy’s post holocaust novel, The Road, in which a father and son are fleeing to nowhere, hiding from bands of cannibals, scrounging food and shelter, occasionally killing others in order to avoid being killed themselves. We’re not that bad off, but if things get much worse for us we could be as bad off as we were in 1932.

My title comes from a poem by the late Richard Hugo, the poem he chose as the title poem for his collected poems. It’s a dream of fishing, as so many of Hugo’s poems are, in clear mountain water for the deep source of the given world. A source that may be lost to the characters in Cormac McCarthy’s novel:

Once there were brook trout in the streams in the mountains. You could see them standing in the amber current where the white edges of their fins wimpled softly in the flow. They smelled of moss in your hand. Polished and muscular and torsional. On their backs were vermiculate patterns that were maps of the world in its becoming. Maps and mazes. Of a thing which could not be put back. Not be made right again. In the deep glens where they lived all things were older than man and they hummed of mystery.

I think it turns out that the humanities serve the same broad cultural and ethical purposes they have always served and that our stake in educating new generations is not merely that we hope our civilization may persist, but that we cherish the world in its becoming and hope that becoming may persist above all, even in and amongst the shadows cast by gigantic piles of dead and hoarded wealth.

Meanwhile, Dr. Kendzior urges her fellow graduates to work their hardest and do their best, to hustle and scrounge and play the odds, to organize and push for collective change, and to husband self-respect and compassion.

Small hope in these recommendations, but perhaps the only short-term hope there is.

November 22, the more it stays the same

I last wrote about this anniversary in 2008 when I recalled a prayer I heard on the loudspeaker at Crozier Technical High School in Dallas where I taught an extension class on Monday, November 25, 1963. As I said then, the prayer concluded with the agonized question: “Why, Lord, why did it have to happen, and why did it have to happen here?”

This year the city of Dallas has asked that question again by undertaking to mount what The New York Times has called “the biggest event it has ever held to mark the assassination.” Dallas, itself, is a changed place, now one of Texas’ liberal leaning enclaves (unlike surrounding Dallas County). But this year I am remembering the Dallas political climate of the early 1960s when every day’s news brought us some offense against civility in the depredations of the National Indignation Convention where Evetts Haley called for the lynching of Chief Justice Earl Warren, and Edwin Walker attempted to out-MacArthur the infamous world war II general almost daily. The early sixties offered a feast of political extremism in Dallas, circulating a pamphlet accusing the president of treason and inciting angry mobs to abuse Lyndon Johnson and Adlai Stevenson.

We tend to forget that President Kennedy was in deep trouble when he traveled to Dallas in 1963. His legislative agenda was stalled in the congress. He was targeted by organized hate campaigns on behalf of various fanatical anti-communist groups, opponents of civil rights, and anti-Catholic Christians. He had come to symbolize all that the most fanatical movement conservatives hated most: east coast elitism, sympathy for communist regimes, opposition to Jim Crow—no matter his problematic history with respect to civil rights and the prosecution of the cold war. The assassination made JFK a martyr for causes he had come to support reluctantly and made Dallas his symbolic assassin, albeit the real killer was in all likelihood a disaffected loner.

A number of journalists have connected present-day right-wing fanaticism with the fanaticism of the 1960s and earlier times. See here and here for examples. Right-wing fanaticism runs deep in Texas and in Dallas, the home of the revived Ku Klux Klan of the 1920s. Much has been made of the shift of southern right-wing voters to Richard Nixon in 1968, but in Texas it was the Eisenhower election of 1952 that marked a massive shift of right-wing Democrats to support of Republican candidates, led by then governor Allan Shivers. Ronald Reagan was courted by these same Texans as a potential presidential candidate in the years immediately before the election of 1960. The Shivercrats, as we called them, kin to the Dixiecrats who supported Strom Thurmond when he walked out of the 1948 Democratic convention to protest his party’s civil rights agenda, remained in the Democratic party until Lyndon Johnson’s presidency, when Johnson’s defection to liberalism gave them a reason to declare themselves Republicans. Texas Governor (as well as Secretary of the Navy under John Kennedy and Secretary of the Treasury under Richard Nixon) John Connally, was one such Shivercrat.

McCarthyism and racism run deep in Texas as well. Just before I became a student at SMU in the early 1950s, the chair of the English department, John Beaty, had become widely controversial for his fanatical anti-communism, which caused him to complain that SMU was rife with communists and fellow travelers. I remember watching him walk around campus wearing a pith helmet—we joked about it and called him Clyde. Marshall Terry has remembered him as a fine teacher, Paul Boller as a vindictive red baiter. In Austin, J. Frank Dobie had been targeted by the FBI and the House Un-American Activities Committee after his shift to liberal politics in 1943. Dobie was eventually driven out of The University of Texas by right-wing governor, Coke Stevenson, in 1947. I’ve mentioned the depredations of J. Evetts Haley, one of the founders of the John Birch Society and a red baiter and Roosevelt hater from the earliest times. Haley remained a force in Texas politics throughout the 1960s. His 1964 book, A Texan Looks at Lyndon, made him a national figure for a time. Haley is also the author of a much praised biography of legendary cowman, Charles Goodnight, a book Dobie admired. Dobie and Haley were friends for many years until Dobie declared for liberalism and civil rights. Haley was also a committed racist, as were most others who supported the National Indignation Convention. Texas’ history as a haven for slavery and its long and shameful history of racist lynchings and mass murders are indices of the depth of its racist past.

But these observations don’t tell the whole story. Texas had a strong liberal contingent in my day, led during my experience by Senator Ralph Yarborough. The Texas Observer was and remains a liberal rag with a fair amount of influence. In my day in Dallas, SMU stood as a bastion of liberalism, even though it depended upon right-wing Dallas for yearly support. Unphrey Lee and Willis Tate didn’t win all the battles they fought, but they fought the good fight, something I think SMU has forgotten how to do. I need to think about my Texas. It is my place in a way that New Mexico, where I was born, is not; in a way that North Carolina and Missouri, places I Have lived for many years and will always love, are not. Texas is my place, and my love for Texas is kin to my love for my country. I need to think about these things because I have never explored them except in an essay I published over twenty years ago. I wrote about it here last year.

And I intend to write more about these things. But today I am thinking that I shouldn’t be surprised at the recent craziness of some Texas politicians. It is as though the past that many in Dallas would like to escape has now become a permanent part of American national life, as Manny Fernandez observed in The New York Times. This year, on the anniversary of John Kennedy’s death by violence, I am remembering the many who have been murdered by political violence in my state and in my country in my lifetime. And I am not unmindful of the significance of a poster that has circulated recently charging President Obama with treason.

Adam’s Curse

We’re just back from a long weekend in Chicago that we mostly spent going to museums. But we had a few interesting and pleasant encounters with fellow travelers as well. Here’s one.

We stay at the Essex on Michigan Avenue since we discovered it a few years ago when we had waited too long to get into the Hilton across the street for the annual meeting of the National Communication Association. It’s a nice simple hotel, friendly to commercial travelers and vacationers alike. One pays a bit of a premium for its location on the south loop, but not as much as one pays for grander digs at the Hilton or the Blackstone.

On the afternoon of our arrival we took a walk along the edge of Grant Park and as we returned to the hotel fell in with an extended family group who seemed to be waiting for the hotel shuttle. At their center was a cluster of children of various ages, including a small boy who had attracted the attention of one of the women in the group. They seemed to be talking about the fact that the boy played the fiddle.

I would have guessed his age at about nine, old enough to speak up for himself but young enough still that he hadn’t yet passed that age when little boys sometimes turn into hellions. His aunt, as I guessed her to be, was saying to him that he could play his fiddle on the street in front of the hotel and make himself some money whilst they were there. His reply to her was that he might do it and then spend all the money he made buying video games.

We chuckled at the exchange, nodded to the grownups in the group as we walked by, and didn’t think about it again until the next morning. We had eaten breakfast in the little Brasserie that opens off the hotel lobby and were settling down to wait for another shuttle to take us to the Art Institute when we spied the small boy sitting in a chair just outside the hotel entrance playing a three quarter size cello with his instrument case open in front of him.

I walked outside to listen, and instead of the squawing I expected heard the surpassingly beautiful strains of a portion of of one of the Bach unaccompanied cello suites. I stood close by and listened to the boy’s playing for a bit then took some bills out of my pocket and put them in his instrument case, noticing as I did that he had already collected quite a reasonable fee. He thanked me politely without breaking his stride, and then I noticed two adults sitting on a concrete tree surround not far away and walked over to them.

“Is he your son?” I asked. The mother beamed and said he was. She then told me that he was eight years old and had been studying the cello since he was four. I speculated that with that beginning he might very well become a professional musician. The mother demurred a bit, saying that careers in classical music are hard. I mentioned young friends of mine who play in symphony orchestras by way of saying that such careers are still possible. Both parents smiled in a way that said to me how proud they were of this little boy, bravely playing his “fiddle” on the street and planning to spend all the money he made on video games.

As we talked on, they allowed as how the adventure had been his idea and that they had been against it at first but had given in because he had seemed very enthusiastic. What struck me, aside from his impeccable and beautiful playing, was the little boy’s confidence. And watching them all together I thought what a fine thing it was that there are still such little boys and such parents in the world, parents willing to nourish a child’s talent without regard for whether it might ever make him any money, parents who understood the preciousness of his gift.

For he had already learned a very important thing about who he was and what he was for. His music was already imbedded in his being; he tossed it off as though it were a slight thing, though of course his abillity to do so bespoke hours of toil and practice. I thought of Yeats’s wonderful poem:

. . . . . . . . ‘To be born woman is to know—
Although they do not talk of it at school—
That we must labour to be beautiful.’

I did not ask his name. It was blessing enough to have encountered him and his parents anonymously. The memory of his playing now resides in my mind among other archtypes that speak of the love of life and find me still rejoicing in the worth of the world.